the last battle

esok the last final paper aku kat sini (seriusly hoping)..paper PDC process dynamic control, memang super killer paper..aku usha notes dan worksheet..memang terlampau susah..outrange of my capability untuk piker...seyesly dowh..aku tak suke giler..ingat nak give my best shot untuk last paper lagi pon aku dah fail 2 paper dah sebelom nih..so kalo fail lagi..alamatnye tak grad la aku..all this 4 years mean nothing kot...tapi dah susah nak mampus camtuh..xde ape leh buat dah..dengan gap 2 ari jek..

macam2 versi aku dgr pasal grad, ade cakap still leh grad but with 3rd class ar..ade lak cakap kene resit year..ade lak cakap kene resit paper and kalo pass kene grad bulan feb nanti (which is 2 3 ketol je yang bakal hadir). seyesly pressure yang teramat..tambah2 lagi aku dah gitau mak aku bulan 7 nih grad..nak suh depa datang..hmmm..agak2 kalo aku tak lepas camner ek nak gitau..???

sure berkecai ati die..dah la aku satunye2 harapan mak aku nih (cewah..haha) xde ar, abg ku pon ari tuh mak aku x p..sebabnye abg aku malas nak attend ceremony (Ade gakkan org camtuh)..hmmm...so nak tak nak aku kene lepas requirement untuk grad..

ok..!! first paper ari tuh lean manufacturing, ok ar..aku leh perform gak ar..agak2 boleh kot..and second paper project management..seyesly aku puas ati giler jawab...main balun jek..and third paper chemical product design..boleh jek jawap but agak susah sket nak dapat markah..event 4 soklan aku spot masuk..keempat2 masuk..aku just study last minute..dgn konfidentnye bukak exam question sheet..bulatkan soklan yang aku jangka leh buat..senyum bukan main lebar lagi..ye la sume 4 soklan tuh aku ade bace..and hafal sket2...tapi bile part calculation tuh...hmmm..dah start pelek dah..asal lak number yg aku dapat nih cam ridiculous jek.. ade terlampau besar and ade terlampau kecik..aduyai..buat aku ilang konfident jek..ape2 still syukur aku leh gak balun jawap..walaupon nan hado jek kan..and last paper esok nih..satu hapah pon aku tak paham..dah la dapat markah koswork ari tuh rendah giler..aku rase macam fail je paper nih..

p/s: dah start piker masa depan..antar resume berpuluh2..satu pon xdek jawapan..ingat susah2 nak jadi cikgu je la..haha..
owh..interview FYP ari tuh went well..walaupon ade siket kantoi ngan tony wilson..

gud luck sumer kawan2..lepas grad sumer pliss don't forget each other..

bengang sungguh bangang

seyesly tgh bengang skang nih...pasal FYP, kitorang kene interview this coming wednesday..and semalam ngan ari nih g usha final report..dapat la a few feedback from kitorangnyer supervisor..ingat sumer dah setel ape sumer dah..lega la kan..sebab nak focus on final plak..

tup2 tgk final report tadi aku nyer prliminary design untuk heat exchanger xdek..xdicompile sekali..bengang gak ar, aku bertungkus lumus buat benda tuh..org lain punyer elok jek ade..aku dah tanya ari tuh dah masukan belom data sheet heat exchanger aku..die cakap dah masukan dah..ok fine ar..tapi tadi tgk sumer ketujuh-tujuh heat exchange aku xdek..aduhai..nasib baik appendix ade plak (tu pon sebab aku print awal2)..leh la gak counter ngan pemeriksa nanti..aku dah consult spervisor die cakap ok xpe..on the day interview nanti just bawak sumer data sheet tuh..incase dorang tanye..fuh lega...!!

ok la..nak gak kan study ape yang patut untuk interview nanti..so aku usha compiled file soft copy punyer (kitorang kene antar soft copy ngan hard copy skali..) skali usha calculation details for distillation design aku plak missing, heat exchanger jangan cakap ar..mmg x exist langsung..so ape yang sebenarnya aku buat nih..?? just report ngan econ je ker..?? mane support materials aku kalo dorang tanye..seyesly aku bengang giler..dah la distillation tuh main design aku..ayo..!! arghhhhh..rasa cam nak sumpah seranah jek skang nih..tapi kang ade yang cakap aku terlebih emo la kan..

p/s: cube control bengang tapi ade budak2 tak cukup umor nih dok provoke bagai nak rak..ape salah aku pon tak tau..maybe die terasa status kat fb aku yang seyesly aku tak tuju untuk die...

p/s: penat kissing a$$, dah jadi cam org bodoh dah...lantak p la ko..skang time aku untuk back out..idop dengan dunia ko sendiri..jgn kaco aku sudah..

super kiut

seriusly mmg kiut, aku ade tertgk member post somthing kat facebook..so view je la video nih..kiut giler babeng ar..aku tgk over and over again..berbelas2 kali dok ulang dgr..mmg kiut sungguh..budak kecik gadoh2..




ape yang di gaduhkan pon aku tak tau..boleh tahan mulut dak pompuan tuh..hahaha..

[0.30]
laki: be quiet
pompuan: you be quiet
laki: no, you be quiet now
pompuan: you be quiet, i'm first you.......
laki: .......
[0.51]
pompuan: you are bad
laki: no you are worst
pompuan: i ma tell your mom, you are go home
laki: go

(best dialog aku dgr, tapi xsure betol ke x..best kalo layan dak2 kecik)

p/s: exam lagi kurang 10 ari..still xstart langsung study..

kerja, kerja..lalala kerja...owh mesti kerja

kerja.? hah.. kerja ape nih..?? ye ar lepas grad, ko dah sedia ker...?? ermm belom sedia agi ar (sambil tekan submit resume kat jobstreet).. resume dah start antar dah secara eletronik, tapi seyesly aku tak sedia agi untuk kerja.. tak sedia agi nak tinggalkan zaman relek kat unim nih dan tak sedia lagi untuk menempoh zaman kerja yang stress..ermmm..tapi ape2 pon benda tu kan pasti..nak tak nak terpaksa gak kerja..aku bukannyer anak raja (even anak raja pon kene keje wei) leh melancong abis kan rete yang bertimbum. aku ade tanggungjawab nak support..hmm..skang ni just antar resume, tak memilih sgt...just randomly antar kat certain company yang based on chemicals/chemistry/process/petrochemy..hmm..entah ar ade rezeki ke tak...

tadi usha jobstreet nyer page, nampak aku nyer resume di view satu kali...and ade tande merah kat atas "application unsuccessful" ces...satu peluang job dah ilang..aku bajet yang tu dapat kot..sebab requirement tak dek la tinggi sgt.. tapi tak dek rezeki..xpe2 cube lagi paan..ade la rezeki terselit kat mane2 tuh..insyaAllah..mudah-mudahan...

p/s: skang nih, know-who lagi penting dari know-how..tanpa kabel sebesar main paip SYABAS..sure susah nak dapat job...hmmm...

takziah and al-fatihah

am i too exaggerate if i'm putting adik aminulrasyid's picture as my profile picture in facebook...?? because i'm damn hoping that people won't forget he was brutally murdered like we all forget about Norizan Salleh and others that clearly fallen into misconduct of the authorities.

yes, arwah ade buat salah, tiada lesen memandu but is it fair, he was punished by shot to death..? i don't think so..

biarkan this is the last case we hear misconduct by polis or mana2 department of government ataupon mana-mana pihak...dan aku mengharapkan investigation on this case di jalankan thoroughly...tiada pincang di mana-mana, dan aku mengharapkan pihak berwajib have the guts untuk mengakui kesalahan IF they are doing something wrong...dan punish mereka seadil-adilnya IF mereka di dapati bersalah...

al-fatihah untuk arwah...

p/s: ma frens asal lame tak berblog...?? aziq, acap, su..??? hmmm pe cer..??

EFF WAI PEE

the hell week dah abih..akhirnya fyp ku dah sampai ker penghujung..semlam dah submit..dapat gak kot dalam 600 pages..gilo sero..lepas bermacam2 stress, tak cukop tido..even nak makan pon tak sempat..semalam dah sampai kemuncak..tepat pukol 3.30 ptg, kitorang berempat tergedik2 lari ke fakulti office dengan satu stack of fyp file yang berat gedabak dengan camera untuk sessi cam-whoring...sumer jelas je kat muka, HAPPY plus bangga...

seriusly..lepas berhari2 lepak kat tiscra.....dapt gak aku balik..teros tido..15 jam later baru bagun (skang ni)..bilik bersepah2, rindu giler kat dekstop, katil...

aku rase aku deserve kot dapat work distribution 22 out of 25 (yg actual)..aku just bagi markah aku kat 2 org member lain, so jadik 28, 28, 22, 22..dorang yang betol2 bertungkus lumus (aku bertungkus lumus gak, tapi kurang la sket)..plus agak terkilan sket, sebab expectation aku untuk diri sendiri tak tercapapi..time constrain giler2....sempat buat sket je..

ape2 pon tempoh yang paling stress adalah last week...beberapa kali decide tarikh dan mase nak meet up dan compile everything...tapi akhirnya tunda gak sbbb masing2 tak siap lagi...tipa kali dekat dengan hari compile yang dah decide tuh...aku seyesly stress, pressure bertambah..ye la kan..mane la tau kot2 aku sorang je yang tak siap..mampos la.. tapi mmg betol pon..semalam ade lagi yang aku tak siap untuk group work...last minit buat..untuk individual design plak, ade yang tak complete..hmm..xpe2 arap2 markah yang kitorang dpaat worth la...

macam macam reaksi aku tgk semalam kat tiscra..cam situasi kat bursa sham..ala bilo ko tgk tb tuh..dorang ade tunjuk org2 pekerja kat saham tgk tgk skrin..and then siap2 tulis sumthing..kecoh2..hah..cam tuh la kat tiscra smalam..dgn tunggu Q printer lagi...mmg suasana genting giler vavi...lepas submit..ade yang hapy giler2..(contoh terdekat kitorang) ade yang cam tension giler (grup mate tak siap kot), ade yang tak puas ati (maybe tak sempat antar, printer rsak)..macam2 lagi la..

esok ade satu lagi koswork...aduhai..dah tak dek mood dah nak wat..sebb skang dlaam mood PERAYAAN...haha...

p/s: thank to all my group mate..you all the best...my pleasure working with you guys...

aku mahu tiada badan tapi kamu

i wan nobadi nobadi bat yu...i wan nobadi nobadi but yu..a really fast growing song dan lagu korea yang paling popular aku rase...mostly ramai yang tau nyanyi lagu nih..dengan lirik yang catchy giler, smooth and erotic dance dari pompuan yang cumil-cumil, putis gebus lagi..so most orang terpikat..so lets chekidaout dance2 dari youtubers seluruh donia nan fana nih..

dari yang kecik beringus berpampers lagik...





to fonen-fonen yang terlampau lembut



and wonder gay






even solo pon leh jugak ape (btw, she's cute)




brade nih sure xdak keje kat opis nih..dance pon layannnn




sampailah ke animasi yang super cool nih




and last but not least, summing it up, see this compilation



k last skali, the original from wonder girls



kawaiiii....^^

sumer video leh carik kat youtube..byk giler org post..

p/s: don't stop blogging my fren..teruskan menulis..!!!

No, no, nooooo..!!!

kalaulah kat belakang aku ni tak ade beban untuk di tanggung sudah tentu lepas foundation je aku blah masuk IPTA. dengan title nottingham kat depan, aku harap boleh kaver semua bebanan di belakang. tapi makin lama tekanan dari depan dan belakang makin terok, sampaikan aku sendiri dah tka mampu untuk bangun menghadap dunia lagi dah. jadi ape aku buat just follow the flow, orang letak kat bawh di bawah la aku, orang campak ke kiri kekiri lah aku. dah tak mampu untuk melawan, walau dalam ati, dalam otak dah aku karang berbagai hujah untuk aku lawan, tapi bila aku berdepan jek " yes" tu jek jawapan die. hipokritkan..!!


p/s: "no" seems the hardest word to say right now...

p/ss: entry mengarut [IGNORE]

Eminem- beutiful

"Beautiful"

Lately I've been hard to reach I've been too long on my own Everybody has a private world
Where they can be alone
Are you calling me, are you trying to get through
Are you reaching out for me, I'm reaching out for you

I'm just so fuckin' depressed I just can seem to get out this slump
If I could just get over this hump
But I need something to pull me out this dump I took my bruises, took my lumps
Fell down and I got right back up But I need that spark to get psyched back up
In order for me to pick the mic back up I don't know how I pry away
And I ended up in this position I'm in I starting to feel distant again
So I decided just to pick this pen
Up and tried to make an attempt to vent
But I just can't admit Or come to grips, with the fact that I may be done with rap
I need a new outlet I know some shits so hard to swallow
And I just can't sit back and wallow
In my own sorrow
But I know one fact I'll be one tough act to follow
One tough act to follow I'll be one tough act to follow
Here today, gone tomorrow
But you have to walk a thousand miles

[Chorus:]
In my shoes, just to see
What it's like, to be me I'll be you, let's trade shoes
Just to see what it'd be like to
Feel your pain, you feel mine
Go inside each other's mind
Just to see what we find
Look at shit through each other's eyes
But don't let 'em say you ain't beautiful oh
They can all get fucked.
Just stay true to you so
Don't let 'em say you ain't beautiful
Oh they can all get fucked. Just stay true to you

I think I'm starting to lose my sense of humor
Everything is so tense and gloom
I almost feel like I gotta check the temperature in the room
Just as soon as I walk in
It's like all eyes on me
So I try to avoid any eye contact
'cause if I do that then it opens a door to conversation
Like I want that... I'm not looking for extra attention
I just want to be just like you
Blend in with the rest of the room
Maybe just point me to the closest restroom I don't need no fucking man servant
Trying to follow me around, and wipe my ass
Laugh at every single joke I crack
And half of them ain't even funny like
Ah Marshall, you're so funny man, you should be a comedian, god damn
Unfortunately I am, but I just hide behind the tears of a clown
So why don't you all sit down
Listen to the tale I'm about to tell
Hell, we don't have to trade our shoes
And you don't have to walk no thousand miles

[Chorus]

But don't let 'em say you ain't beautiful
Oh They can all get fucked.
Just stay true to you so
Don't let 'em say you ain't beautiful
Oh They can all get fucked. Just stay true to you so

Nobody asked for life to deal us
With these bullshit hands we're dealt
We have to take these cards ourselves
And flip them, don't expect no help
Now I could have either just
Sat on my ass and pissed and moaned
But take this situation in which I'm placed in
And get up and get my own
I was never the type of kid
To wait by the door and pack his bags
Never sat on the porch and hoped and prayed
For a dad to show up who never did
I just wanted to fit in
Every single place
Every school I went
I dreamed of being that cool kid
Even if it meant acting stupid
Aunt Edna always told me
Keep making that face till it gets stuck like that
Meanwhile I'm just standing there
Holding my tongue up trying to talk like this
Till I stuck my tongue on the frozen stop sign poll at 8 years old
I learned my lesson and cause I wasn't trying to impress my friends no more
But I already told you my whole life story
Not just based on my description
'cause where you see it from where you're sitting
Is probably 110% different
I guess we would have to walk a mile
In each other's shoes, at least
What size you where? I wear tens
Let's see if you can fit your feet

[Chorus]

Lately I've been hard to reach I've been too long on my own
Everybody has a private world Where they can be alone... so
Are you calling me, are you trying to get through oh
Are you reaching out for me, I'm reaching out for you
so oh oh

Yea... To my babies. Stay strong.
Daddy will be home soon
And to the rest of the world, god gave you the shoes
That fit you, so put em on and wear em
And be yourself man, be proud of who you are
Even if it sounds corny,
Don't ever let no one tell you, you ain't beautiful

aku rase this is the most beutiful lirik dari eminem selain dari mockingbird, loose yourself, dan like toy soldier... dari chorus samapi la tiap2 baris kata2 tuh..memang beutiful...