No, no, nooooo..!!!

kalaulah kat belakang aku ni tak ade beban untuk di tanggung sudah tentu lepas foundation je aku blah masuk IPTA. dengan title nottingham kat depan, aku harap boleh kaver semua bebanan di belakang. tapi makin lama tekanan dari depan dan belakang makin terok, sampaikan aku sendiri dah tka mampu untuk bangun menghadap dunia lagi dah. jadi ape aku buat just follow the flow, orang letak kat bawh di bawah la aku, orang campak ke kiri kekiri lah aku. dah tak mampu untuk melawan, walau dalam ati, dalam otak dah aku karang berbagai hujah untuk aku lawan, tapi bila aku berdepan jek " yes" tu jek jawapan die. hipokritkan..!!


p/s: "no" seems the hardest word to say right now...

p/ss: entry mengarut [IGNORE]

Eminem- beutiful

"Beautiful"

Lately I've been hard to reach I've been too long on my own Everybody has a private world
Where they can be alone
Are you calling me, are you trying to get through
Are you reaching out for me, I'm reaching out for you

I'm just so fuckin' depressed I just can seem to get out this slump
If I could just get over this hump
But I need something to pull me out this dump I took my bruises, took my lumps
Fell down and I got right back up But I need that spark to get psyched back up
In order for me to pick the mic back up I don't know how I pry away
And I ended up in this position I'm in I starting to feel distant again
So I decided just to pick this pen
Up and tried to make an attempt to vent
But I just can't admit Or come to grips, with the fact that I may be done with rap
I need a new outlet I know some shits so hard to swallow
And I just can't sit back and wallow
In my own sorrow
But I know one fact I'll be one tough act to follow
One tough act to follow I'll be one tough act to follow
Here today, gone tomorrow
But you have to walk a thousand miles

[Chorus:]
In my shoes, just to see
What it's like, to be me I'll be you, let's trade shoes
Just to see what it'd be like to
Feel your pain, you feel mine
Go inside each other's mind
Just to see what we find
Look at shit through each other's eyes
But don't let 'em say you ain't beautiful oh
They can all get fucked.
Just stay true to you so
Don't let 'em say you ain't beautiful
Oh they can all get fucked. Just stay true to you

I think I'm starting to lose my sense of humor
Everything is so tense and gloom
I almost feel like I gotta check the temperature in the room
Just as soon as I walk in
It's like all eyes on me
So I try to avoid any eye contact
'cause if I do that then it opens a door to conversation
Like I want that... I'm not looking for extra attention
I just want to be just like you
Blend in with the rest of the room
Maybe just point me to the closest restroom I don't need no fucking man servant
Trying to follow me around, and wipe my ass
Laugh at every single joke I crack
And half of them ain't even funny like
Ah Marshall, you're so funny man, you should be a comedian, god damn
Unfortunately I am, but I just hide behind the tears of a clown
So why don't you all sit down
Listen to the tale I'm about to tell
Hell, we don't have to trade our shoes
And you don't have to walk no thousand miles

[Chorus]

But don't let 'em say you ain't beautiful
Oh They can all get fucked.
Just stay true to you so
Don't let 'em say you ain't beautiful
Oh They can all get fucked. Just stay true to you so

Nobody asked for life to deal us
With these bullshit hands we're dealt
We have to take these cards ourselves
And flip them, don't expect no help
Now I could have either just
Sat on my ass and pissed and moaned
But take this situation in which I'm placed in
And get up and get my own
I was never the type of kid
To wait by the door and pack his bags
Never sat on the porch and hoped and prayed
For a dad to show up who never did
I just wanted to fit in
Every single place
Every school I went
I dreamed of being that cool kid
Even if it meant acting stupid
Aunt Edna always told me
Keep making that face till it gets stuck like that
Meanwhile I'm just standing there
Holding my tongue up trying to talk like this
Till I stuck my tongue on the frozen stop sign poll at 8 years old
I learned my lesson and cause I wasn't trying to impress my friends no more
But I already told you my whole life story
Not just based on my description
'cause where you see it from where you're sitting
Is probably 110% different
I guess we would have to walk a mile
In each other's shoes, at least
What size you where? I wear tens
Let's see if you can fit your feet

[Chorus]

Lately I've been hard to reach I've been too long on my own
Everybody has a private world Where they can be alone... so
Are you calling me, are you trying to get through oh
Are you reaching out for me, I'm reaching out for you
so oh oh

Yea... To my babies. Stay strong.
Daddy will be home soon
And to the rest of the world, god gave you the shoes
That fit you, so put em on and wear em
And be yourself man, be proud of who you are
Even if it sounds corny,
Don't ever let no one tell you, you ain't beautiful

aku rase this is the most beutiful lirik dari eminem selain dari mockingbird, loose yourself, dan like toy soldier... dari chorus samapi la tiap2 baris kata2 tuh..memang beutiful...

menulis dengan tiada perasaan

trying untuk tak menulis pasal benda nih, walaupon hampir tiap2 minggu dengar berita.. sebab tiap kali aku start nak menaip, terus jari aku jadi kaku, cam xboleh nak menaip..walaupun berpuluh2 sumpah seranah dalam pikiran aku tgh tunggu Q untuk ditaip...tapi entah cam ner ari nih tertengok pic die..suci, bersih, kiut lagi...tersentuh dan sedikit relief sebab tak seperti yang lepas2...yang ni sempat hidup untuk mengenal dunia (Insya'Allah).

kisah baby yang dibuang...kali nih dekat ipoh, baby perempuan ditemui di tempat pembuangan sampah oleh orang lalu lalang. ya Allah, ape nak jadi dengan manusia sekarang nih..senang2 jek beromen, bile dah mengandung dapat anak buang merata-rata. agaknye ape perasaan dorang time buang anak tuh, adekah menjerit menanges cam dalam muvie or just bungkus campak dan blah. ape plak perasaan dorang time satu malaya kuar berita jumpa anak tepi longkang, dalam tong sampah, atau pun hanyut di sungai tatkala dorang tahu itu semua perbuatan dorang. tak piker ker dorang itu satu nyawa, suatu anugerah yang di beri oleh Allah pada mereka.

try untuk tak beremosi ketika menulis nih, walaupon geram dan benci sangat2 lah kat mereka yang lebih teruk dari binatang nih. ari tuh baby kat kuala krai, di buang dalam tong sampah majlis daerah dan di bakar...sampai keesokan pagi pekerja majlis daerah jumpa baby separuh terbakar di hurung lalat...mana keperimanusian dorang semua nih..senang2 jek amek nyawa baby yang tak berdosa, bila dah nafsu di ikuti semata2...macam ni lah jadinya...baby di buang merata2 dah macam buang sampai atau pun buang bangkai binatang dah...

aku rase perlu ade tindakan khas untuk isu buang baby nih..biar ibu bapa yang getik sangat nak beromen rase..di hukum sebat di khalayak ramai mahupon ape2 hukumn lah yang boleh di fikirkan..selain dari memberi pembelajaran dan ilmu akidah untuk anak2 muda yang rata2nya gersang dan sangap nih...

nah sumber: Mstar online

sajak nik aku jumpa kat tenet..buakan aku yang buat, merata2 sajak nih..so, author die aku tak tahu, sape yang karang pon tak tahu..so xdek reference..sumber aku amek dari cari forum

Bu, adik cuma ingin bertanya…

Rasanya ibu tak akan mampu menjawabnya...

Ibu ingat 14 Feb tak
Malam tu ibu ada janji temu
Ibu jumpa jejaka tu
Ibu kata dia cintakan ibu

Benarkah bu?

Dia puji dan puja ibu
Dia rayu dan belai ibu
Katanya cintanya hanya untuk ibu

Benarkah bu?

Ibu terkhayal dengan pujukannya
Ibu terbuai dalam bicaranya
Ibu terlena oleh bisikannya

Benarkah bu?

Ibu tak kisah dia peluk ibu
Ibu izin dia sentuh jasad ibu
Ibu puas dapat buktikan setia ibu
Macam dia kata… mahu bukti cinta dari ibu

Tapi benarkah bu?

Masa berlalu,
Hari ini lepas 9 bulan...
Benih yang ibu dan lelaki itu tanam telah membuahkan hasil
Hari ini buah cinta kalian telah terzahir
Hari ini bukti kasih jejaka itu kepada ibu telah lahir...

Tapi benarkah bu?

Kenapa dia tidak sama menyambut kami?
Kemana dia telah pergi… tidak azankan kami?
Mengapa ibu pun benci kami?
Sedangkan inilah semaian tanda cinta kalian?

Mengapa ibu?
Tak terasakah sakit dan perit
Tak berbakikah kasih dan sayang dan
Tidak lagikah ibu berTuhan?

Benarkah ibu?

Benarkah begitu?

Adik cuma nak tanya je bu.....

update: ni link baru dari berita harian pasal sajak nih..ade gambar2 yang cukup menyayat hati lagi kat situh..posted by johnjimat

p/s: menulis dengan tiada perasaan...

fly, fly and away

there's a hole here
where you used to fill in once
and it's still there
waiting to be fill in again
i don't know how much i love you
how crazy i'm missing you
until now
when i realize you took something out of me
and went away
i still can't forget you
still thinking about you
but i never wish you'd be here again
i'm just wishing that hole and pieces of my heart that you took away
can be fill in with someone better
and you know that, it's very difficult..
whatever it is, i'm just hoping..


just go and fly away...but i'll always remember you've stop here once...

top 8 blogger

top 8 blogger aku ak suker..nah..ingat dah lame nak publish citer nih..tapi dok sebok manjang kan...list yang aku kureng suke bile jalan-jalan usha blog orang..ni pendapat peribadi je la..maybe korang sendiri tak sker pendapat aku, xberkenan ke ape ke..xkesah la kan..sebab ianya adalah subjektif..no exact answer..

8: kopi pes
ni lagi sengal...nak criter lam blog pum pang pum pang..tapi kontennyer kopi pes jek..xsalah pon kopi pes, as long as korang buat reference (ala cam report lab tuh, sertakan link skali)..senang kalo nak rujuk ke ape..or paling best kalo korang leh quotekan, maksudnyer korang leh la elaborate or komen barang sepatah dua patah ker kan..xdek la tgk plain jek kopi pesnyer..

7: diari
aduhai..actually bukan sumer diari aku tak suke..aku suker jek bace diari..lagi2 kalo blog tuh kepunyaan member2..leh la korek2 sket kan..entah2 ade dorang ngumpat kat aku ker ape ke..tapi kalo completely stranger (ala-ala frend alam maya jek)..xbest lak bace..ye la dah la kite tak tau sape..tibe2 dok citer ari nih, bagun pagi pakai suar, g dating ape sumer..huh..sape ko..ade aku kenal..?? nak berak berbuih pon aku tak kesah..

6: prejudis
tau la kan blog ni tempat bebas bersuara..ala-ala alam berdemokrasi gitu kan..sumer bebas menyatakan pendapat..tulis macam-macam..tapi kalo dah kutuk mengutuk tuh...jadi cam xbest plakkan..blog untuk melepskan segala hangin lam badan..tapi bukan semestinyer perlu nak megaibkan org..segala citer lam kain korang nak citer..cam tak patut la kan..dan macam csi kepo-kepo lak..tambah2 agi sikap prejudice...tiap entry mesti ade bau2 menghina or menjatuhkan org..low klass sgt..kao korang nak lepaskan gian nak citer pon xkisah as long as korang tak direct insult..maknenyer perlu ker letak full name siap ic numbar agi...nasib baik mak bapak nenek sumer tak dek..ape salahnyer kalo guner name samaran ker ape kerkan..Mr.X, Mrs.Y..best plak bace...

5: right click..
esklusif la sgtkan blog ko tuh..sampai2 xleh dah nak right klik..padahal ayat merapu bengong jek..lain la kalo korang ade post sumthing yang betol2 esklusif cam gambar2 yang korang amek sendiri ker kan..boleh la terima..ni tak..cerita2 biase jek pon, kalo la atok aku reti bace boleh jek die tulis cam ko tuh..xheran dah..bukan ape aku ni kalo blog yang best2..aku akan right klik tiap tajuk untuk open new tab..jimat mase untuk loading kalo tenet persis siput..

4: pop out lagi
mungkin nak tunjuk korang terer ke ape ke kan..boleh la ubah code2 ape sumer tuh..tiap kali orang masuk blog ko leh jek "hi welcome to my blog" windows kuar..nak close lak "hi dah nak kuar ker..jumpe lain kali".. cam berhantu lak dok tgr camtuh..nasib baek xdek suare..kalo tak for sure tak masuk aku sampai bile2..

3: urghhh...berpinau mate tgk blink2..
kononyer nak eksklusip la kan..sampai buat font kaler macam2..kalo stakat 2 3 4 kaler tu ok jek lagi..tambah2 kalo macthing ngan background..aku leh trime lagi..ni tak, dah la background flashing nak mampos...font pon ala-ala kecik besor kecik besor kan..aku tgk pon dah naik berbulu dah..nasib kalo kontent bagus or member2 yang kenal...teros gak gigih bace..tapi kalo blog korang so so jek..terus aku close...

2: iklan, iklan, iklan
xleh bla langsung..bukan tak nak sapot korang cari side income tapi kalo tiap kali klick tuh kuar pop out berpuloh2, jenoh gak aku nak close sumer kan..dah la ade sesetangah tuh maen cak cak plak..kejap pindah penjuru ni kejap penjuru sane..nak klik close pon susah...tapi kalo iklan yang korang just tepek kat page tuh ok je la kan, x de la annoying sgt...silap2 kalo time hati senang ade gak aku klick menklik..dapat la traffic untuk blog korang kan..account nufnang of google pon sure ade tambah2...

1: music
tadi berbulu mate tgk font macam-macam..skang ni bernanah lak tinger neh..mane taknyer..music entah ape (ianya subjektif k)..ade yang jerit nak kuar anak tekak ape, ade gak yang mendayu-dayu cam langsuir nages camtuh..urgh..bukan sumer org suke music yang korang minat...so kalo tepek clip youtube or video jek kan best...kalo nak dengar klick jek (even nak buffer cam haremmm kalo tenet slow)..kan sopan tuh xdek la kes pakse memakse dengar camtuh kan..kalo aku bukak blog bermusik camtuh..gigeh gak cari sumber musixnyekan, nak close..kalo tak leh close mute kan jek..tapi kalo blog so so jek (lagi sekali) aku klose windows teros...putus hangin nak bace...


ni cumer pendapat peribadi aku jek..bukan merujuk pada mana2 blog personally pon..just my opinion...lagi sekali bukan nak kutuk org punyer blog..ni cume pandangan sendiri..maaf kalo terkasar bahasa, sesungguhnyer ianya tidak berniat walau sekelumit..

pukol 2 pagi

argh..tido awal giler tadi dalam kol 11 lebey..ingat bagun nak wat fyp, at least siapkan satu part pon jadi ar...so kol 2 bangun, start la ngan semangat nak wat fyp neh " economic analysis"..mule2 cam biase ar bukak komputer > mozila firefox > facebook > farmville > forum > berblog..so, dah berjam2 dah benda tuh sumer, time fyp usha2 camtu jek..ade la 2 3 patah ayat buat tupon tgk buku gakk..aduyai..sakit jiwa betol...by the end of this march kene siap...

tu belom citer asement lain lagi..lean manufacturing, project management, kontol design eh kontrol design agi for sure product design bakal menyusul....rase cam nak meletop lak...pikir sal dinner agi, poket kemarau agi, adik nak motor agi....terasa agak cibai sgt skang nih...so kalo nampak aku with long face cam xbrape nak mesra alam tuh..pliss don't take it personally...either korang ade ckp something aku tak berkenan or it just me...hmmm...ape2 pon kite sambung tido lagi..!!!

p/s: tak suke giler tgk reputz aka pengacara gemok sekor neh...prejudice nak mampos...nak jek aku tenyeh mulot die ngan miang keladi...

whaddehek..!!!

whaddehek...izzie's wont retun to seattle grace..??? arghh..demmm giler bile bace..she is my favorite character tho...dah la george pon xdek..makin hambar la nampaknyer citer grey's anatomy neh...every episode memang aku expect izzie tiba2 muncul, to be back with alex..at last bile usha web page tadi cam xcayer jek..dorang dah confirmkan pon izzie's out..after di bagi peluang untuk absence for her movie shoot and maternity leave..so there will be no special episode pemergian izzie..

agak terasa kehilangan especially for those peminat grey's since 1st episode agi..camner kite tgk love and friendship since dorang interns agi sampai la jadik resident..macam-macam they have been through...
come on la, she's hot ape...and the best way it shud be is kekalkan original cast lam tuh, sbb mercy westers was so annoying...





ape pon all the best la untuk katherine heigl and hopefully creator die or producer can come out with better storyline to replace the loses of her...


sumber (click here)

Big, Bigger, Biggest

lately byk gt benda aku tulis..tapi sumer just sampai separuh jalan jek..byk idea, tapi tak tertulis..nak cakap sibuk, fyp pon lom tanda2 sampai suku pon lagi..dekstop dah baru, so literally tak dek alasan nak bagi..

the biggest loser asia, semalam finale berlangsung kat dewan FINAS (ye..!!! dewan finas jek, x grand sgt, bajet low kot) and ade yang dah tau pemenangnyer finalis dari indonesia David Gurnani (king david)..congrates2...aku sendirik tak sempat nak tgk kat tb (lupe kot) just dgr2 apdet kat facebook jek..so here pic of a few contestant after the show...

david gurnani; OMG, you look so thin and....ermmmm sick...????


ni lak si carlo from Philippine runner up..ermm..thin and healthy...


3rd place aaron mokhtar from malaysia..not bad gak la


the cutie, martha from hong kong.. pipi still tembam agi..but you look so cute..



other contestant lak, xjumpe gambar selepas...dah puas korek dah, xdek gak...

sumber gambar dari facebook TBLA (click here)